Maybe thing's aren't that bad?

Let's see, maybe thing's are not that bad at all? Actually, if the both of us put in the effort a little by little? The story maybe a different ending? Okay, here is the story:

Me and him gave ourselves another chance to push the accelerator constant. We made a deal to try to make the situation the way it was before where the both of us were happy together. Uhm..example, phone calls, talking, conversations, updates on our lives. And so we did. It was not that bad at all. I can tell he is trying.

We basically been talking since last Saturday (08/05/06) then a break on Sunday and THEN we have been talking everyday since Monday (08/07/06).

Check list.

Talking stupid. Checked

Laughs. Checked

Silly talking. Checked

Serious talking. Checked

Life updates. Checked

Noticed something different. Checked

Making fun of ourselves. Checked

Make fun of each other. Checked

I know this check list is kind of ridicule, but hey I am having fun knowing what me and him been up to myself. I found out something really funny, well at least I thought it was funny. He moved to another area and he told me he got a roommate. Just out of curiosity I asked him,

Me : Hun, is Jorge your roommate or housemate?

Him : What's the difference?

Me : Err, roommate is someone that sleeps in the same room with you, and a housemate is someone that lives in the same house but different room.

Him : Oh, then housemate he is.

Me : Uhm..yea, I cannot imagine you being in the same room with a guy.

And we just burst out laughing about it. See what I mean, just silly talk about roommate and housemate makes us laughs. Knowing the fact that he didn't know the difference of roommate and housemate makes me feel smarter than I thought I was.

Yesterday we were talking to an old friend named Chris on Yahoo Messenger. Chris is in Utah now living in a motel that cost $400 permonth, which is not too bad according to the both of them. I didn't know whatelse to say just kept quiet and agreed. (Er hello? I am a student 400 bucks is a LOT to me). And so Chris noticed a girl by the reception is a "cute native american girl". Curiousity kills the cat. Nick, being a Native american himself persuaded Chris to ask what tribe that girl is. Persuasion failed. I found out that Chris is a scary cat himself. LOL not to be mean but I witnessed.

Chris was waiting on her to pick up the phone because she will intro her name over the phone. Nick, being the aggressive one of course did not give up persuading Chris. I being the smart one, browse through the Native american name list online. I typed all the possible name but none of them were her name. Native American names, some are weird but some are really sweet. I like Angeni myself, that means "spirit angel". Sweet huh? I thought so too.

And so, after all the names try-outs. She finally picked up a call and said her name, Rayleen. Now here is the fun part.

Nick : What the....Rayleen? That's no Native American name..she must be a white chick that just got tanned!

LOL Funny to see how he express himself. We just burst out laughing. It was funny, after all the effort, she does not have a Native American name. Then Chris got kicked offline.

So left me and Nick having our own little conversation again. He was browsing through a link I gave to him and he found an English-Cherokee Dictionary! If you have not noticed, he is from the Cherokee tribe and Cherokee is his native language. He taught me some of his language, and dang...it does sounds Japanese to me and most of them does not make any sense. Don't believe me? Take a look at this...

(english) boyfriend = u-na-li-go-di (cherokee)

Try that! Sounds funny right? He is trying to preserve his language. It be so much fun to learn! If you want to learn more words hit the link below,

English-Cherokee Dictionary

After all that talking and fun, I had to go dinner and he wants to watching Chris Angel the magician show. So, I let him go.

Later that night, after dinner and I was walking home, he called me on my phone to check on where I was and to say Good night. I thought that was sweet.

Uhm...after all this typing. I guess all I am trying to say is that, all things won't be as bad as we thought it will be, so long as both parties put in a little effort to make a difference. As for me and him, we are so far so good.

And, jeez, who could have imagined I am learning Cherokee right? =)

Pit of Dilemma

Did I fall in myself?

Or did I create that pit and stepped down myself?

I don't know, I am so confused. Should anyone deserves another chance to make things right? Should anyone gives anyone a chance to make things right?

Or am I just being naive thinking that things will change by giving someone another chance?

Maybe chances are given to those to asked?

And he did so, give him that chance?

Why does someone has to lose something to know that's the one thing you don't want to lose?

What does a man think a relationship is?

Questions..upon questions filled up my head..what is going on?

~deep pit of dilemma~

Time to give up and let go?

Maybe it is about time to give it up and let it go? I believe life still goes on. Getting over him is not easy I would say but hey, time does help in healing. If we are not meant to be, maybe then we have someone else for us?

I guess I have been hold on for too long for a relationship, and all I am getting is a basket full of lies that should have not been hidden from me. But it did.

This time it ended quietly and peacefully, I haven't shed a tear since Thursday. Maybe I am beyond being hurt and I cannot even cry anymore. Some people has a limit to where they would cry and they couldn't cry. It has gone beyond that level to me. It maybe it is a good thing.

No matter what it is, no matter what had happened, I am now closing my chapter of my life with him.

THE END

The Last Time

The Last Time

by RIHANNA

Once was a time you and I

Made a promise till the day we die

I trusted each and every word

Never thinkin that I'd get burned

Silly me I believed in your fairy tales

Boy I thought that I knew you so very well

But you walked on my pride all the tears that I cried

And it cuts like a knife

[Hook]Its the last time your ever gunna kiss these lips

Or ever will decieve these eyes

Believe me when I tell you this

Baby boy its the last time

I'm ever gunna cry these tears

I'm never gunna hear your lies

So listen while I make it clear

In case you didnt hear

This times the last time

Theres no time

To give it one more try

Theres only time to say goodbye

Fooled me once shame on you

Fooled me twice now this song is through

The things you said I can never forget

The things you did fill my heart with regret

But I'm still standin tall as I walk away

And you know that its true when you hear me say

Its over, its through

And nothin you can do boy its sad but its true

[Hook]Its the last time your ever gunna kiss these lips

Or ever will decieve these eyes

Believe me when I tell you this

Baby boy its the last timeI'm ever gunna cry these tears

I'm never gunna hear your lies

So listen while I make it clearIn case you didnt hear

This times the last time

Theres no time

To give it one more try

Theres only time to say goodbye

Good Byeee No Baby

Silly me I believed in your fairy tales

Boy I thought that I knew you so very well

But you walked on my pride all the tears that I cried

And it cuts..like a knife

[Hook]Its the last time your ever gunna kiss these lips (ever gonna kiss these lips)

Or ever will decieve these eyes

Believe me when I tell you this

Baby boy its the last time

I'm ever gunna cry these tears

I'm never gunna hear your lies (never gonna hear your lies)

So listen while I make it clear

In case you didnt hear

This times the last time

Theres no time

To give it one more try

Its over its through nothin you can do and wonder why

Theres only time to say goodbye

Baby goodbye

Never gunna never gunna cry no more

Goodbye goodbye

Wou girls! Just wanna have fun! =)

Alright..I have been a R.E.B.E.L but shhhhhh..no one should know this! Yesterday was Sunday..and..I went out to Waimea with some friends. Kakakaka still..no one should know about this ok? So yea..Mahera called me around 11am, and told me that she had a plan..an EviL plan. I await for more details as I smirk to myself..and say, "Yes?"

[whispers: a plan to go Waimea Valley Fall]

Yup. "Imma rebel" say the Ebonics. Hehe

So, I was given 30mins to get ready to go! And..what a crucial coincidence..I was looking forward to go to the AR

"ARGH!!!! OKAY! THAT'S IT! I TOOK MY PRECIOUS TIME TO TYPE A WHOLE LONG STORY AND PUFF! STUPID MOUSE MESSED IT UP! HIGHLIGHTED EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEVERYTHING AND DELETED WITH ONE HIT OF THE STUPID KEYBOARD. SO YEA, I give up and writing everything all over again..so bear with me, because whatever that happened just now killed my mood. So I am just going to add the pictures and you go figure what happen! ARGH!!!"

That's Irene in red, Katie and Mahera our picnic stop over ;-) Our munchies are,

- Chips Ahoy (chewy crackers)

- 10 pieces of Fried chicken

- 1 whole piece of huli-huli chicken

- 3 bottles of water

- chicken musubi (mine..lol)

- rice with stew pork (missing mushrooms and ginger flavor)

- potatoes wedges

- french bread

After that we started off our journey again and I saw this isolated sign saying "Waterfall" and so I decided to take a picture with it. My glasses makes me look retarded I know, but "I do not care," says Karen (Remember the Titans).

There we go! All the way was worth it ;-) That's the waterfall we have been walking all about for. One thing that is a little bit disappointing is that the Fall was not heavy but still it was nice. See the 3 of us on the left? Yup, that's us with some other people and Katie..where is she? [if you have to ask, hit your head] Okay, let me tell you about this little Fall. To swim to the Fall..was a HUGE effort. DO NOT UNDER ESTIMATE the waters. From the surface of the waters to the bottom which we were at in the picture is 30 FEET! Yup, I had Irene and Mahera along my side..haha I am a loser but HEY I swam over and took a picture. The waters from the Fall was warm..and it was nice. I likey!