You tell me..I don't really know. Indulging myself with school work, social and church's welfare. Is that not enough? I don't know.
I felt like I am lost some how. I thought I was able to focus, but maybe it was a lie for myself? What is it that I am hiding? One thing I know for sure is the blast of relationship I was in, I am so over with...what is it I am so lost and confused about?
Does life really sucks? I doubt it. I assume it must be more than what...there is got to be more to life. Maybe I need another blast in life to make a difference?
Great, and I am yet to find that blast?
Come to think about it, I maybe know what I am missing...maybe that's the one thing I am missing right now that needs time to look for.
Since 2nd October 2006. Things seems to change in me, emotionally especially. Am I asking too much for myself? or is the world asking too much of me? I was once told, I am in the world NOT of the world. But..how can I be just IN the world when everyone else is OF the world?
Dilemma...dilemma...something needs to be done and I do not know exactly what..
Will time tell?
