That's what friends are for..

When I look at her pictures...my tears starts to sail in my eyes..and it rolled down my cheeks.

Those happy smiles I saw when she sang to me when I was down for the first time in Hawaii, those happy smiles when we got silly together playing guitar with Mahera's brother, those happy smiles when she see's JAMBA JUICE, those happy smiles when we were on the bus with Mahera making her hair on our adventorous way to WalMart ended up in HaleIwa eating L&L...

Those smiles I see in her pictures..are as happy as those days..but nothing compares. She is married...the one that is as childish as I am, the one that hides under the shades when me and Mahera happily exposing ourselves under the sun. The one that reads and writes her journal while we indulging ourselves with that dark tanning lotion...

She has always been the smartest among us...the one that pushes herself to the limit in her studies, and a good and perfect example of a good Mormon..lol..I love her for that...nothing..I mean nothing can move her away from the line of RIGHTEOUSNESS.

She now belongs to a MAN named DENNIS SIOW. Someone I met not long before I left to BYU-H. He respects me as a sister...I respected him as a brother. I remember when he first told me that he was dating her, I doubted him. *something personal* <---being honest here..but no offense Dennis..lol still love you! He knows what I am talking about.

Not long after that, I found out that they were engaged...I was enraged..WHY? because I found it through Facebook. But, Joanah made it up to me by showing me first..her wedding gown. =) I am evil.

I was talking to her today, addressing her Sis. Siow. We had the longest talk ever since I left Hawaii on Yahoo. She told me so much about me that she and Mahera had talked about. Something that I had no idea I am worth of, something that I do not know how much I meant to them. I am sitting here now, thinking about our good times, and bad times...my nose are blocked, hardly breathe, I feel tears in my eyes, visions are blurry...I love them.

Without them, I would not have felt so much joy during my down times. Without them, I would not have felt so much love. Without them, I would not have known the beauty of friendship. Without them, my hard times would not be easy. Without them, I would not have the greatest birthday away from home. Without them, I would not have had the greatest almost burnt brownie cake for my birthday. Without them, I would not have the greatest song sang to me on my birthday.

Whenever I hear this song...

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try to feel
The way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

Whoa, and then for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and know
These words are comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember, oh

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Oh, that's what friends are for

Whoa... oh... oh... keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, oh, for sure
'Cause I tell you that's what friends are for
For good times and for bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for (That's what friends are for)

On me, for sure
That's what friends are for
Keep smilin', keep shinin'

Remember our song girls?

This is the greatest song, I ever ever sang with you both. I am trying, but I can't help it. My tears are flowing...You made me feel that I can count on you..anytime of the day...any day of the year...

I love you..

Something that I want to share with you, a card from Mahera that she slipped it in my bag..and I didn't know it until I got on the plane..and read it quietly..in tears.

"Jan-20-2007, Hawaii, Laie, BYUH at 10:00pm"
"ROOMIIEE..."
"Well! what can I say...I don't know where to start, there is so much to say!! (U know me)...But, I want you to know, that you've been my best roomate EVER...My best confident EVER...My listener when I needed, my 'FUN' partner...and I can go on & on...Thanks so much for the laughs we shared, the tears, the fun, the fears we had, the trips we had in town and around the island...Ah! only good souvenirs..

I guess it meant to be the way it is...we met & now each one of us have to go in our own way. But, that was an awesome time being with you. It has been a pleasure to meet you & hope u had a good time with me too...I know that I can be annoying but what can I do!! I guess, it's just me...Now, those our own SOUVENIRS..I really hope that we will have the change to meet again just like in 'Aloha Oe' which is why I am not saying good bye to you. Because we shall meet again...have a good trip home, take care of yourself. Find what you really want in life...Find your way & be happy, achieve your dreams. Right now, do your best in all you do. I miss you already..your friend, Mahera =)

PS: No need to have tears because we shall see each other again...ok love your friend from Tahiti...So keep smiling for me =)"

(The cover of the card: we may not have been born sisters but we're sisters in every way that counts...

The inside of the card: and today and always, I want you to know how much your friendship means to me.)

Like that I told Joanah today, "maybe me and mahera were not meant to BE there...but the 3 of us, were meant to MEET each other there"

Thank you for being the must treasurable pearl I can never replace it with any diamonds.