Time to give up and let go?

Maybe it is about time to give it up and let it go? I believe life still goes on. Getting over him is not easy I would say but hey, time does help in healing. If we are not meant to be, maybe then we have someone else for us?

I guess I have been hold on for too long for a relationship, and all I am getting is a basket full of lies that should have not been hidden from me. But it did.

This time it ended quietly and peacefully, I haven't shed a tear since Thursday. Maybe I am beyond being hurt and I cannot even cry anymore. Some people has a limit to where they would cry and they couldn't cry. It has gone beyond that level to me. It maybe it is a good thing.

No matter what it is, no matter what had happened, I am now closing my chapter of my life with him.

THE END

The Last Time

The Last Time

by RIHANNA

Once was a time you and I

Made a promise till the day we die

I trusted each and every word

Never thinkin that I'd get burned

Silly me I believed in your fairy tales

Boy I thought that I knew you so very well

But you walked on my pride all the tears that I cried

And it cuts like a knife

[Hook]Its the last time your ever gunna kiss these lips

Or ever will decieve these eyes

Believe me when I tell you this

Baby boy its the last time

I'm ever gunna cry these tears

I'm never gunna hear your lies

So listen while I make it clear

In case you didnt hear

This times the last time

Theres no time

To give it one more try

Theres only time to say goodbye

Fooled me once shame on you

Fooled me twice now this song is through

The things you said I can never forget

The things you did fill my heart with regret

But I'm still standin tall as I walk away

And you know that its true when you hear me say

Its over, its through

And nothin you can do boy its sad but its true

[Hook]Its the last time your ever gunna kiss these lips

Or ever will decieve these eyes

Believe me when I tell you this

Baby boy its the last timeI'm ever gunna cry these tears

I'm never gunna hear your lies

So listen while I make it clearIn case you didnt hear

This times the last time

Theres no time

To give it one more try

Theres only time to say goodbye

Good Byeee No Baby

Silly me I believed in your fairy tales

Boy I thought that I knew you so very well

But you walked on my pride all the tears that I cried

And it cuts..like a knife

[Hook]Its the last time your ever gunna kiss these lips (ever gonna kiss these lips)

Or ever will decieve these eyes

Believe me when I tell you this

Baby boy its the last time

I'm ever gunna cry these tears

I'm never gunna hear your lies (never gonna hear your lies)

So listen while I make it clear

In case you didnt hear

This times the last time

Theres no time

To give it one more try

Its over its through nothin you can do and wonder why

Theres only time to say goodbye

Baby goodbye

Never gunna never gunna cry no more

Goodbye goodbye

Wou girls! Just wanna have fun! =)

Alright..I have been a R.E.B.E.L but shhhhhh..no one should know this! Yesterday was Sunday..and..I went out to Waimea with some friends. Kakakaka still..no one should know about this ok? So yea..Mahera called me around 11am, and told me that she had a plan..an EviL plan. I await for more details as I smirk to myself..and say, "Yes?"

[whispers: a plan to go Waimea Valley Fall]

Yup. "Imma rebel" say the Ebonics. Hehe

So, I was given 30mins to get ready to go! And..what a crucial coincidence..I was looking forward to go to the AR

"ARGH!!!! OKAY! THAT'S IT! I TOOK MY PRECIOUS TIME TO TYPE A WHOLE LONG STORY AND PUFF! STUPID MOUSE MESSED IT UP! HIGHLIGHTED EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEVERYTHING AND DELETED WITH ONE HIT OF THE STUPID KEYBOARD. SO YEA, I give up and writing everything all over again..so bear with me, because whatever that happened just now killed my mood. So I am just going to add the pictures and you go figure what happen! ARGH!!!"

That's Irene in red, Katie and Mahera our picnic stop over ;-) Our munchies are,

- Chips Ahoy (chewy crackers)

- 10 pieces of Fried chicken

- 1 whole piece of huli-huli chicken

- 3 bottles of water

- chicken musubi (mine..lol)

- rice with stew pork (missing mushrooms and ginger flavor)

- potatoes wedges

- french bread

After that we started off our journey again and I saw this isolated sign saying "Waterfall" and so I decided to take a picture with it. My glasses makes me look retarded I know, but "I do not care," says Karen (Remember the Titans).

There we go! All the way was worth it ;-) That's the waterfall we have been walking all about for. One thing that is a little bit disappointing is that the Fall was not heavy but still it was nice. See the 3 of us on the left? Yup, that's us with some other people and Katie..where is she? [if you have to ask, hit your head] Okay, let me tell you about this little Fall. To swim to the Fall..was a HUGE effort. DO NOT UNDER ESTIMATE the waters. From the surface of the waters to the bottom which we were at in the picture is 30 FEET! Yup, I had Irene and Mahera along my side..haha I am a loser but HEY I swam over and took a picture. The waters from the Fall was warm..and it was nice. I likey!

He is a Blessing to me..Uncle Peter

How can I have this person in my life as my long term blessing from the Lord? I love you Uncle Peter..Thank you so much for making everything..well almost .. ;) possible in my life..

~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
hello!
Fui Kong says:
hi chuiyi
~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
how are u
Fui Kong says:
good
yourself
~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
thats good, i am good too
thought Id say Hi..long time no see
Fui Kong says:
how long has it been since you went over to Hawaii
~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
Uhm..15months
time flies..
Fui Kong says:
if you like to visit Malaysia and your family in your coming vacation, I would be happy to provide you with your air fare
~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
really
Fui Kong says:
yes
it is good to see how your family is doing
~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
Thank you so much...
Fui Kong says:
they must miss you a lot
you can check on the air fare from your end
~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
Yea..so far they are doing good, my mom is not a baby sitter, and my father is Working and taking of Home..and yes..I miss them a lot too and I miss you guys too of course
Fui Kong says:
ok
make your plan
~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
yes I will do that..thank you so much..
Fui Kong says:
book early
let me know the cost
when you do graduate
~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
Okie..oh yea..so when is your trip to come over to Hawaii
I am looking at..August 2008 if things goes well..
Fui Kong says:
I will be happy to fly both your parents to attend your Graduation Ceremony
for me I plan to visit US this December
~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
are u serious!
Fui Kong says:
maybe this time I should go via Hawaii
yes
I am always serious
~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
yea..come to hawaii..i would u to come and see my school and the place i work..
Fui Kong says:
yes I will happy to visit you and your school
~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
I am sure u will this place too..hehe and I want u to know what this place is about..bcos you are the one making all this posible for me.
at least thats the way I see it..
Fui Kong says:
ok
make your travel plan yourself
and let me know
~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
okie..will do
Fui Kong says:
need to go now
bye
~¤ Çhüî ¥ì ÎÑÇ ~¤ says:
okie dokie..u take care and bye .

See that? I couldn't ask for more..

4th Of July..

Uhmm...ok...INTERESTINGLY..8 more mins to go till the end of the 4th of JULY. Let's see how much I can type about today. Well..the count was kind of low today in the restaurant. Just about 220 people that visited our restaurant. Work was not that busy and frustrated, everything went pretty slow and easy. So yea..that was it. Haha ironic huh? Ok..so me and Megan went to Foodland to return the DVD's that we have rented last weekend. So we walked through the neighbourhood and WHOA! those kids were playing firecrackers and fireworks. Me and Megan was kinda freaky walking by them. Because they will just throw it EVERYWHERE! It was funny how the both of us trying to walk away from it.

Then we came to this corner junction, there was a BIG BIG crowd of people and they have this ladder of firecrackers set up. It was bing bang bomb all the way to the top of the ladder it was BIU TI FUL!...SO we made our way to the Ohana Video Store returned the dvd's and was so worried about which way we are going to use to walk back home because we are both losers YES I know..but try to walk in the neighbourhood where EVERYONE is playing those bursting fire balls and throwing them everywhere..how would you feel? FREAKY? Muahaha

So we pass by that corner junction again, and these people were all ready to light up the gigantic spider looking firecrackers having them lined up all the way to the top ladder with 5 guys at the end of each long crackers..counting down 5..4..3..2..1 !! they all light it up together and once again..BING BANG BOMB!!! it was soooooooooooo loud yet to BIU TI FUL!! everyone was happy so was me and Megan..after finishing that, we slowly walked home..the same way we came..and yup..those **WEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! it's exactly 12.00AM!!** firecrackalacking all the way..once again we jumped and swaying left to right to get away from them..hehe

SOOOOO...there were also other families that was playing those reaaaaaaaaaaaaallly purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrty fireworks that shots up in the sky making those "BUP!BUP!BUP! PLIK! PLAK! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE POP!" sound.. it was a really fun walk..we wouldn't have seen such a great sight if we hadn't decide to walk over to return the dvd's..so yea..I enjoyed that night and so does Megan.. =)

Another day outa TOWN..

This day..it was GREAT. Me, Megan, Johan and Tyler went to town and we...BUY! BUY! BUY!.. The bus ride was kinda killing but we survived! Yeee Hawww! So Johan suggested us a place where we can eat real good Malaysian Chinese Food. So we took that Onehour and 45mins sickening bus ride to Ala Moana (Like our KLCC mall) then we walked about 20mins to this restaurant. We almost got ran over by a car while we were crossing the road...but we lived. So..after we crossed over, there was a lil' paper sticking on the door saying "We will be closing on April 30th" it was the 1st of July on that day..YUP! The restaurant CLOSED. WaAaAAaAaaAaaa..after all the sickness and cheat deaths and walks we end up finding the restaurant was closed. But oh well...we cross back the same road back to the other side and the Smart Johan told us that there's another Chinese Buffet Restaurant over the corner and so we went..and Thank Goodness it's open! We went in and it was like a reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal Chinese Restaurant..and they have this buffet line with really good stuff too...they have fried shrimps, fried chicky wings, roasted duck, sweet and sour piglegs, eggplant, fried rice, and they also have "Sai Mai Lou" for dessert! It was sooooooooooo good.
After that lunch, we walked all the way back to Ala Moana and did some shopping. And then we went to Walmart to get some toiletteries. We didn't leave that place till 9pm..therefore those pictures...below..

This is a MAN STATUE right in front of Hawaiian Convention Center, I thought I give it a shot and take a picture of it..I think it is unique..hehe..NEXT!

Okay...there's me and Megan in the picture..I wanted this picture and Johan refused to take it..hehe I wanna picture at the butt! Without knowing my head is right in the BUTT! Argh! The HORROR!! But..hey it's a NICE picture...that Sexy statue are not SEXIER to see with us in there..hehe ;-)

Hawaiian WATER PARK! WICKED!!

This is one of the MOST Exciting day out I had in Hawaii..my ward..went to the Hawaiian Water Park..and it was SOOOO much fun! It's almost like Sunway Lagoon and oh my I will go back again when I have some extra cashys..hehe..I went with some of my girls..Vicky, Nami, Joanah, Ailia, Caroline, Aggie and Tasha..they are soo much fun! Didn't take much pictures of us on those rides..but I took some picture of those crazy rides..and they are SOOO much FUN! *noticed I repeated twice* hahaha

The.."butt in the camera" picture..walking in the water part..

Why are girls so camera SHY? Bravo Tash..you did it! and SMILE YOUR ON CANDID CAMERA!..hehe

Sings..*We're just hung-ge-ry people..and we all know which way to go...* Yummy lunch..

-BBQ Chick

- Chilly Dog

- Salad

- Rice

- Sodas

This bad boy is call "CliffHanger"..what we do is..from the top we lay down in the tube..hold on to the rod..then let go and you went "SLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLIDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE" all the way DOWN..YEA BABY! FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!

Another bad boy..call the Flying something I forgot so I am going to call it a Flying Man tube. The same thing you do at the top hold rod and lay down..the only thing is..see the water splash out from the tube? THAT's where your body will be and you will go..**SPLASH!!** and **TUMMMM** in the water..SWIM BABY! SWIM!

Newly Wed (Dom and Jamie)

Uhm..somewhere in April 2006, Dominic and Jamie got married and we were invited. Eh..it's not my wedding day don't expect me to remember the dates ok..haha. Dom made a really nice slide show of him and Jamie and it was really touching..he got pictures from their childhood till teen till college and adult life..aww thinking about it give me chills down my spine..very romantic..hehe..

Dom the broom...I mean the GROOM and Jamie the Bride..I have no Idea why they not looking at the camera..shy maybe? haha

Me and them..Don't I look gorgeous..I mean them..hehe

Awww...look look..the Malaysia Famili piktor..so sweet..

I am so cuddly..LiMei can't take her arms off me..mmmm I feel loved...and yes I love my EMO hair NOT! It was accident..but hey..I think it made me look pretty..haha *don't get jealous now!* Don't hate! LOVE!..hehe

The future Bride to be..JayAnna and Me..She went home for Summer..miss her silliness..hehe LOVE YOU JAY..Hurry home!

Gospel Forum in MAY

Being in a CHURCH School..you cannot miss out Gospel Forum..

Date : ~somewhere in May..can't remember~
Organizer : LiMei
Music : Tyler
Teacher : Dennis Siow
Photographer : Random

Uhm..me and Dennis..eh..for some reasons this picture makes me look awfully FAT! ARGH! Don't even know why I am posting this anyways..DON'T LAUGH!

A meeting I am not even suppose to be in..Hahaha I just sat on it randomly because I was bored. And Megan took a picture of me in them..makes me look I am very very important..awww I was in the meeting..how cool..

Trying to give piggy ride to my lil' friend Nikki..haha so cutee..don't look at me..my hair was JUNK! argh!

For some unknown reasons LiMei named this picture "eh.jpg" don't know why..I was just trying to be silly..what was the first thought that came to your head when you saw this picture? was it "How did she not fall over?" if you did..then you are too smart..

SMC Opening Social (Hukilau Beach)

Waeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...yup WHO SAID I LOST MY MALAYSIAN HERITAGE? muahaha look at us..we had a GOOD Opening Social at the beach for our club..

Me and my buddy..Megan..You see me you see her, you see her you will find me..hahahaha. Look at my sexXay pink lavalava..it's FROM TAHITI! Yup! Mahera's mama brought for me..aww so sweet huh? =)

From Li-eff-t LiMei, Megan, ME and Tugso..as you can see I am SQUASHED! LIKE ORANGE! ARGH! hehe...ooooh Tugso is from Mongolia..I think she is CUTIE pie..and she is KhengSaik's girl..awww Kheng gota cute girl...hehe

Erm..where were we?? Guys...it's Hukilau Bach..haha

HEY NOW!! Turn off the dang FAN! grrrrr

Me and the beach..SIGNBOARD..and I am tall and proud! Weeheeee

Beach time!! TAN TIME!

Okay, I am not a freak I just love TAN..brown skin makes me look sexy okay? Don't argue with me! GRRR..so yea..after celebrating the annual year..YUP it's time for have some fun! Me and Mahera went to the beach and took some sexy shots..SoME are no doubts ugly..but BARE With me okay? Mahera was my PPDP which means my "Personal Profession Demanding Photographer" She demanded most of the POSE..I don't need no credits..give it ALLLLLL to her..muahaha

that's ME! I look so STIFF...like frozen...*hands you some kleenex* sorry don't puke now..haha and don't worry I won't make you sick for posting more of these..haha

Can't deny more...I am a professional SURFER..*bwahahahahaha* Yes I am..Certified one too! Yeeehawwwwwwwwwww......

100% HAWAIIAN! **I wished** Imma sexXay mama huh? hahaha

Me and My PPDP...ehhhh my camera is not bad at all...it can take picture by itself! Whoaaa...got some artificial intelligence baby!

Calendar Girls? anyone? just give me some royalty after..MUAHAHA remember COPYRIGHT! grrr now leave me alone! hehe

One YEAR ANNIE!! weeehee

Okay since I am updating I might as well update as much as I can..hehe

LADIES and GENTLEMEN..on the 30th April 2006, I celebrate my FIRST YEAR in Hawaii with my goodfriends =)

That's the two monkeys..haha You know WHO..Mahera and Joanah..making their ingredients ready for the special dish..

Don't ask me why James look weird..I have no IDEA. Oh some new faces in the pictures? Yup..they are *left* Megan YONG..Mahera..VC and her mom, Joanah and weirdo James..

Here we go..a DECENT picture finally..a shot before we eat =) *woohoo* I am in the picture..I am proud..meeeheee

So yea..wondering what we had?

- Sweet and Sour pork

- Curry chicken

- Spring rolls

- Ice creams

- Sodas

- SIX MONSTERS on the side

AWWWight..Here I am...

Omg..can't believe it, I have missed out this page so much. Everyone has been updating theirs and I am so faaaaaaaaaaaaar behind. *smacks my own head* shame on you! yup! sure IS!

Well...it's been a long time that I can remember that I last update but who cares!? As long as I update it now. You have not been missing much because I basically did not do much for the past few months. Just that it has been *thinking and counting..one, two, three...* One year and 3months for me being in Brigham Young University-Hawaii. Gosh..time passes reaaaaaaaaaal fast, what have I done? Err..GOOD QUESTION!

Let's see, some parties, some funtimes, some goodtimes, some badtimes, some hightimes, some downtimes, and so many more somes! What have I done? A lot unexplainable..muahaha

Life is GOOD, Studies GOOD *trying to make it better* uhm whatelse? Ohhh LOVE? *winks*winks* Love is GOOD too. The most exciting event that happenned in the beginning of this year was..I went to LAS VEGAS through LOS ANGELES. Yup! Quite adventurous! ALL BY MYSELF. Hey..don't shake your head, I made my way home sound and safe.

And yes I met my MAN over there..fun eh? My man! Yeah! It was fun meet up and it's an experience I would cherish all my life. GOSH! Ever thought I'd be in VEGAS? Heckkkk NO, but I did..so I am proud of myself. Another big plan for this year is....saving up money to go LOS ANGELES again to VISIT DISNEYLAND! and go back to VEGAS..hehe **WISH ME LUCK!**

Sometimes I wonder, what does it take to have a dream accomplish? NEVER GIVE UP and Work on it. Yea..so I am living with that phrase now..and OF COURSE not forgetting the help from the one ABOVE..Heavenly Father =D

Oh and last June, I volunteered as an Usher for BYUH June Commencement. It was a FUN Experience..Elder Richard G Scott was there. Being there witness some of my friend's graduation does motivates me in working harder in my next semester. I want to graduate like them! YEA!

Just remember that, there is nothing in life that we want that we cannot achieve unless we give up and let it go off our hands. A lot of things in life we have to work and earned it. Nothing comes easy handed. Believe in yourself and have faith in your doings and in Him.

Ahhh suddenly I feel sooo...Spiritual? haha oh my..what has got into me? I guess everyone has their Spiritual side...and this is MINE..